Our Sunshine

A few weeks back as I was heading home from the gym and Gav asked if we could go see Sienna and of course I couldn't say no to that so we headed to her grave and sat and talked to her. It was so cute cause Gavin kept kissing the headstone like he was giving his sister a kiss and he would run around the cemetery and I know they were playing together. When we were about to leave Gav insisted on getting a picture with the grave and I kept telling him no cause we had so many of him with her headstone and he just kept insisting. All I had was my phone so I used my camera on there and took a picture. Some may think that bright light is a reflection from the sun but I took 3 others right after and that bright white light isn't in the picture. I got chills when I saw that picture and knew that that was Sienna wanting to be in the picture with Gavin.

Sienna has truly been my guardian angel and has helped me immensely in my life lately. She has guided me to make the right decisions and comforted me in hard times. She is truly my sunshine and I am grateful to have such a perfect little girl that I will be able to feel her spirit with me a lot.

My Miracle

So I saw this quote the other day when I was at the parade of homes and couldn't help but think of my sweet Sienna...

"Such a BIG miracle in such a LITTLE girl!"

She is a miracle in more ways than I know right now and even though she isn't here on this earth with us I can feel her spirit with me all the time. That picture is of Quin's hand with Sienna wrapped around her finger and I know she is cause his appendix almost burst last week and you could tell she was with him through it all even his surgery. She has sure been watching over us and IS apart of this family. I am lucky to have her!

Brownie

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After

Meet "Brownie"! She is my comfort blanket. The pink squares are the fabric we had left over from what Sienna was wrapped in and what we had left of the bear they made. I am glad they gave me back the scraps so I could make this blanket( with a ton and I mean a ton of help from my amazing mother!) If you are wondering why I call it Brownie. Well if most of you don't know Sienna means a reddish brownish color. I know that is sad that my daughter is named after a color but I am obsessed with chocolate and especially brownies and it is my comfort so I decided to name my blanket brownie.

I have it draped over a rocking chair in our spare room (hopefully it will be a babies room someday) And every night I read a book to Gavin in that rocking chair and he asks to be wrapped in the "Sienna blanket".

Sienna's 1 year in heaven is coming up in over a month and I have had a lot of break downs as I prepare myself for that day and that blanket has brought me comfort cause as I wrap myself in it it is almost as if she is wrapping her arms around me.

If any of you have any suggestions on what things I can do for her 1 year in heaven I would love to hear. I am planning on doing a balloon release and making her a little cake to put on her grave. But I want to do more but can't think of much right now.