Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Monday, August 1, 2011
Sunday, June 5, 2011
- Me and Quin have grown closer and have cleaved unto each other through it.
- I hold Gavin a little tighter and try to be a better mother
- We have had an immense amount of love and support and prayers.
- I have had great health and so has my family
- Quin got blessed with a better job
- I have made some amazing friends
- My testimony has grown
- I have a closer relationship with my heavenly father
- I have not wanted to make a mistake and try harder to be better
- I have a special angel in my house now
- I can now help those that have trials cause I can understand
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes. Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think
I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes, they are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these Shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them do they don't hurt quite as much.
some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No Woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I also wanted to share that last weekend as I went on a trip with my husband which was muchly needed I thought to myself as we were driving I am finally starting to feel truly happy again since I have had Sienna. I actually smiled for real instead of forcing it out of me. I actually felt like I will be okay that I can make it and I am seeing the end of this depression and the beginning of my happiness again. I am not going to lie I know I will still have days that I just want to lock myself in my room and cry but I am actually seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Things are starting to move along with Quin's job searching and it is bringing so much more hope to when we can have another beautiful baby.
I am starting to love life again and each day is getting better!:)