Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Dear Sienna

My dearest sweet baby girl,
I wanted to write you letting you know how much love I have for you. This past month has been the hardest month I have had in my life but at the same time I have never felt this blessed in my life. Sweet Sienna you have been such a fighter through all of this and it is hard to see you get more sick with each ultrasound that we go to but I love seeing your sweet hands and feet kicking around in there. Your kicks have gotten more faint each day that passes but I cherish each and everyone of them. I don't know what this next month has to offer for us and you but I am glad that I chose to be your mother up in heaven and I chose to go through this trial here on earth because I wouldn't change you for anything.
Your sweet big brother loves you so much I can tell. I have dreams of you two playing all the time and I don't know if that will be here on earth or if that was you two in heaven before he came. He gets so excited to see pictures of you and always says 'baby sister!" He knows who you are and I can tell that you two were best friends in heaven. After each meal Gavin always points to my stomach and asks if baby sister is eating now and I always tell him yes. I know that your brother was sent to us to help me and your dad get through this hard time. He keeps us smiling cause he knows that that is what you would want.
You can tell your dad wanted a little girl so bad when I got pregnant. When we went shopping he would pick out the cutest dresses for you. He has great taste and knows what would look great on his little girl. It breaks my heart to see him in tears over you because he doesn't cry very often, before this all happened I had only seen him cry twice so you know he truly loves you with all the tears he has shed. He has been taking care of me and it makes me sad that he can't feel your kicks cause you are too tiny for him to feel.
We love you so much Sienna and we are excited to have an angel watch over us if you don't make it here. We will strive everyday to be better so that we can be worthy to see you again. I am so lucky to have such a perfect daughter. Thanks for blessing our lives and we hope to do the same in return. I love you and you will always be my little girl no matter what happens.
Love always and forever,
Mommy

17 comments:

Envyshope said...

Beautiful letter to your daughter. Praying for you.

**Amanda** said...

Tree you are so unbelievably strong and an inspiration to many.
This letter brought tears to my eyes. I can't imagine what you are going through but you are so strong.
Always thinking about you.

Holly Wolly said...

sending hugs and prayers your way...you are a wonderful mommy and Sienna is so lucky to have you....I'll be thinking of you this week!!!

Mindy said...

Ooh, I wish I was there to give you a hug right now. Such beautiful words to Sienna from her beautiful mommy. You and Quin will be in my prayers.

Kellan's momma said...

My thoughts and prayers and still with you and your precious angel.
Christina

thetaooftulips said...

blessings to you dear- it's a beautiful and perfect letter to your beautiful and perfect lil one. What a gift your family is.

Kelly said...

Such a beautiful letter to your sweet baby girl. Continued prayers for you and your family.

Zoey's mom said...

Sending you peace and strength for the days ahead and prayers in great abundance to you little fighter girl.

j*e*n said...

Still saying prayers for you & your family. And especially a prayer for Gavin.

Gabriel's mom said...

We are praying for you and your family's continued strength. You are an amazingly strong woman and your children are truly blessed. I dont know if you have heard about Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep, it is a group of photographers who take pictures of little ones and their families who are experiencing a time of sorrow to help in the healing process. In this difficult time I am sure it is difficult to process everything that is going on. We are praying for your family!

ch said...

Know that you're in our prayers, too. We're praying for healing for every heart in your family...big and small...and are so appreciative for each update you're able to provide.

xoxoxox

Rebecca said...

I am thinking of you and always praying for you and your family.

stephanie said...

Hello! I just found you from the comment you left on Jeana's blog over a month ago.
Sienna is in our prayers now too!! as are you and your family! I'm so glad I found you, seems everyone I know already has!

Kayla W. said...

Teresa,
I haven't looked at anyone's blog in about a month since we were preparing to move back home.
I had no idea about anything that was going on with you and sweet Sienna. What a blessing it is to know that families are forever and that we have a Heavenly Father who will take care of us no matter what. I hope you know you can call or text me anytime you need someone to talk to. :)

Branden and Mindy said...

I really think about you daily! I am so sorry about all of this but at the same time you are supposed to go throught all of this for a reason! You and your cute family will be stronger because of this! Love you lots!!

Shayla Finlinson said...

Tree that letter was beautiful.. what a sweet letter.... She was truly chosen to be your daughter and I can't wait for when you get to meet her again.. what a beautiful reunion that will be.... I love you Tree...

Megan Isham said...

OH WOW I WAS BAWLING AT THE ENDOF THIS LETTER. I AM AMAZED AT YORU STRENGTH AND WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED THROUHG ALL THIS. I THINK THAT IS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS WE CAN LEARN FROM OUR TRIALS. HOW WE CAN HELP EACH OTHER AND WHAT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO LEARN. THAK YOU TERESA FOR YOUR FAITH. IT HAS HELPED ME REALIZE THAT THE LORD WILL BLESS US AND THAT HE LOVES US.