My dearest sweet baby girl,
I wanted to write you letting you know how much love I have for you. This past month has been the hardest month I have had in my life but at the same time I have never felt this blessed in my life. Sweet Sienna you have been such a fighter through all of this and it is hard to see you get more sick with each ultrasound that we go to but I love seeing your sweet hands and feet kicking around in there. Your kicks have gotten more faint each day that passes but I cherish each and everyone of them. I don't know what this next month has to offer for us and you but I am glad that I chose to be your mother up in heaven and I chose to go through this trial here on earth because I wouldn't change you for anything.
Your sweet big brother loves you so much I can tell. I have dreams of you two playing all the time and I don't know if that will be here on earth or if that was you two in heaven before he came. He gets so excited to see pictures of you and always says 'baby sister!" He knows who you are and I can tell that you two were best friends in heaven. After each meal Gavin always points to my stomach and asks if baby sister is eating now and I always tell him yes. I know that your brother was sent to us to help me and your dad get through this hard time. He keeps us smiling cause he knows that that is what you would want.
You can tell your dad wanted a little girl so bad when I got pregnant. When we went shopping he would pick out the cutest dresses for you. He has great taste and knows what would look great on his little girl. It breaks my heart to see him in tears over you because he doesn't cry very often, before this all happened I had only seen him cry twice so you know he truly loves you with all the tears he has shed. He has been taking care of me and it makes me sad that he can't feel your kicks cause you are too tiny for him to feel.
We love you so much Sienna and we are excited to have an angel watch over us if you don't make it here. We will strive everyday to be better so that we can be worthy to see you again. I am so lucky to have such a perfect daughter. Thanks for blessing our lives and we hope to do the same in return. I love you and you will always be my little girl no matter what happens.
Love always and forever,