Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Not Good News

Well I was hoping for a miracle when I went into the doctors today but it looks like everything has gotten worse. She has barely grown a few days worth in the past 4 weeks. She is 7 weeks smaller then she should be right now. And the doctor didn't think she would grow much more. She has started to form pockets of fluid around her heart which weren't there when I went to the cardiologist and that is the first sign of heart failure. Her blood flow is severe through the umbilical chord and it only gets to her when her heart pumps. In between pumps her blood flow completely stops. They gave me a few options, one was to try and deliver her today but she wouldn't survive cause she doesn't even weigh a pound yet. He wants her to get to at least 500 grams before she would be able to survive through delivery. But he didn't think she will even make it to that cause she is not even reaching 400 grams right now. I go back in on Monday to see if there is even a change in anything. He is afraid she won't make it until then but our best option is to wait it out.
My doctor was so nice about everything and wanted the best for us. I am not going to main doctor cause I am extreme high risk now. I may be delivering Sienna next week but we don't think she will make it. I am doing okay cause I have been preparing myself for this. My doctor told me to stay down and rest until next Monday cause that will be the only way the blood would flow better and she would get more oxygen. Sienna has been a fighter and I am grateful that I have been able to carry her this long. She must be too perfect for this life and we will miss her but know that she will always be in our hearts. Thank you everyone for your kind words and prayers. Even if your prayers haven't made a miracle happen for Sienna they have really brought comfort to me and Quin. We have surprisingly been getting through this because of all the support and we honestly believe our heavenly father has been by our side and carried us through this trial. We will sure have an angel watching over us.

16 comments:

Angie said...

Oh... I love ya Teresa! I've watched your faith grow in leaps and bounds these past couple of months and I know that our Heavenly Father has seen that too! He has blessed you with the knowledge of how to make it through this trial and no matter the outcome you've fought a good fight. Remember that this life is but a small glimpse, and that our life after this one will go on forever. What a joy it will be to embrace your daughter for the first time knowing she has walked and talked with our Savior while waiting for you to return to her! I am still praying for you and please know I will be here for you always!

Penny said...

so sorry for this news. i am praying for y'all. may God give you the strength and peace that only He can give....

ash said...

hey tree, let me know if i can take your little guy for you, to give you some rest. i'm available anytime. i'm living in cottonwood heights right now. i bet he'd have a blast with my little thomas. my number is 801-554-4830.

Rochelle said...

Was hoping for better news today. So sorry that it continues to not sound good.
We will keep praying for a miracle, but no matter what she is already a miracle created perfectly by God.

Envyshope said...

Praying for you guys.

Tracy said...

We continue to hold your family up in prayer. Big hugs. My heart to yours.

Shayla Finlinson said...

Oh Tree I was hoping for better news as well... Your posts are always amazing, and inspiring. Take it easy this weekend and try to rest... I love you girl...

Kade and Elisa Clark said...

oh sweetie im so sorry!!! you are and have been amazing through all of this!! you are so strong!!! its inspiring!! you and quinn and your little family are in our prayers!!! please call if i can do anything!!!

Runningmama said...

I am sorry for this news and that that you have to endure all of this...I can't imagine what this must feel like, all I can say is we are praying for you.

Gabriel's mom said...

I am so sorry for this news. You and your family are so strong. We are praying for you all!

Lindsay Quinney said...

Oh Teresa I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do for you guys. Please call me if you need anything.

BrieAnn said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! What a hard day this must have been for you and yet after reading your post I'm amazed at how strong you sound about it all. It's truly amazing what Heavenly Father can help us through/with. Know you guys are in our prayers.

Aubrey said...

I love you.

Jeana said...

It was so neat to meet you. We will keep hoping and praying for your little girl and your family, that you will feel our Saviors arms wrapped around you. Still hoping for a miracle.

Rachel Washburn said...

I am so sorry! This is such a huge trial you guys are going through and we have been thinking about you guys and praying for you guys. If you need anything seriously even dinner one night please let me know!

Diana said...

Hey Teresa, this is Diana (Dickey) Fischer. You are amazing, and doing so well through this very difficult time. If it is any comfort, you are receiving a miracle, one way or the other. If your sweet Sienna makes it, it would be a miracle, and if she doesn't, the miracle is that you can and will still have peace, hope, comfort, and happiness again until you will get to be with her again, which will also be a miracle! The Lord watches over all of us and sends miracles, even if they aren't in the form we had often thought they would come! My prayers are with you and your family!