Tuesday, August 10, 2010

She will always be in my heart

Well the call I have been waiting for all weekend came today. My sweet Sienna won't be making it to our home. They said the only thing they can do is just monitor me more closely but she will eventually pass away. I am meeting with the doctor next week to talk about my options which I am sure are abort the baby or they can monitor her until she goes. She also said that I can stick with my original doctor until she passes. This has been really really hard for me but I know she is so perfect that she needed a body and that was it. I know heavenly father has a plan for her up in heaven. I know it will be a great reunion when I get to see her again. My grandma passed away last night and I am happy that my grandma can be with her right now. I want to say thank you to all you fabulous DS mothers for the love and support you have given me through this hard time. Now it is just a waiting game to see how long she will last. I will always love Sienna and she will always be my daughter. I will let everyone know when she passes. I have had a feeling since Sunday that she wasn't going to make it so I was preparing myself for this call. I know it will take me a while to get through this healing process but she has a mission to fulfill up in heaven. I love you Sienna and I can't wait to see you on the other side.

23 comments:

Becca said...

Teresa, I don't know what else to say except I'm so very, very sorry. My heart is breaking for you right now. (((((hugs)))))

Envyshope said...

I am very sorry Teresa. You and Sienna have been in my thoughts and prayers. I will continue to pray for strength for you. You are an awesome mommy - you gave your daughter life and have fought hard for her. Even though I do not fully understand your specific pain, I have experienced miscarriage several times and it is horrible. However, the heart does heal. Hugs to you.

Melissa M said...

Teresa, I am so sorry to hear this and will keep you and Sienna in my prayers!

QueenBee said...

Teresa I am so sorry that things turned out this way. I am very grateful for your story and to have become internet friends. You are in my prayers and Sienna is lucky to have you as her family. Big hugs to you.

Owen and Krae said...

Teresa, I love you so much! You are an amazing example to me in more ways than I can name. I am so sorry. Let me know if you need anything. As always, you're in our prayers.

CCDunnam said...

Teresa, you and Sienna are in my thoughts and prayers. ((((HUGS)))

Runningmama said...

You will be in my prayers.

Rebecca said...

Praying for you and your sweet baby girl! Cling to the Father, the wonderful Physician.

Angie said...

Oh sweet Teresa! What a special, special spirit she is and what a special Mother you will be to her. I am so sorry for this news, but I know, as you do, that you will get to raise her and she will always be your daughter. We love you and hope you know we will always be here for you and Sienna. Please let us know what we can do for you now and always.

Looking Up said...

Crying with you tonight. You will always be in my prayers.

TUC said...

Oh Teresa, I am so sad to read this. Both you and your grandma are holding Sienna right now... she is so loved. I am sending prayers, hugs, and peace your way.

Rochelle said...

I am so sorry to hear this news about Sienna and your grandmother.
We will be praying for your family and protection around Sienna.

Pat said...

Teresa you are an amazing woman and mother. My heart goes out to you. The love of a mother starts the moment she knows she is pregnant. The eternal plan is a wonderful plan from our Heavenly Father. I'm sure Grandma is rocking and singer to her 20th great grandchild. Love ya Pat

Lindsey said...

I am so sorry Teresa. I can't imagine what this has been like for you and your husband. Things happen for a reason, I truely believe that too. I hope you feel that way and not negatively. She will serve her purpose on earth and go back to heavenly father. Hang in there, if you need anything let me know.

Debbie said...

Tree, I'm sorry about this whole rollercoaster of emotions you've been through. I can't imagine what you're going through, but I am so proud of you and your wonderful example to all of us. Your testimony is amazing, and I whole-heartedly agree that you will be able to raise her someday. She will always be your little girl. Love you!!!

j*e*n said...

Teresa, I'm so sorry that you and your family are going through this pain. We won't know why it happened this way, but please know that you will always have a place in this community that loves someone with DS. We're praying for you!!

Natalie said...

Teresa,

What a difficult situation! I am so sorry for your loss and pain. I can only imagine the emotional roller coaster this has been for you. You and your family are in our prayers.

fawnjenee said...

I'm so sorry, Teresa. I have a little DS sister waiting for us on the other side. Our prayers are with you.

Michelle and Justin Cavender said...

Teresa, I am totally crying for you right now. I feel so humble and lucky that my daughter gets to make it to this world and yours has another purpose in life. YOu are so strong and your Heavenly Father knows this. You have given me strength to be strong throughout the rest of my pregnancy and I love you so much. If you need anything at all, please let me know.

Amy Flege said...

Teresa, I dont know what to say right now except I am so sorry. Still praying for a miracle! hugs!

Elissa said...

There just are not words...I am sorry. You will be in my prayers.

Michelle said...

Sorry to hear this was the news the dr gave you :( Can you get a second opinion? Will be praying for a miracle and for Sienna to prove everyone wrong!

The Fluck Family said...

i'm sorry you have received such bad news...keep hope alive. miracles happen every day. doctors do not know everything.